Poems and Musings

You transport yourself into the future Experiencing months and years in a matter of seconds As if skimming life’s chapters in “cliff notes” fashion In peeking at these moments down the road, you grin Knowing that despite the bumps and bruises along the way There were greater lessons and moments of clarity You momentarily sigh and relax But it is fleeting, and quickly turns bittersweet Future you expresses gratitude towards current you, but the echoes dissipate Because your current self knows not of these outcomes, and can never know By going back to the present when this vision ends, you cannot tap into this foresight You are unable to transcend space and time to alter your journey And alas, you simply welcome this brief gift Cherishing and savoring it selfishly For at least you now know … … that it’ll all turn out alright

I thought of you. Realizing that instead of your splendid scent left on my wrinkled t-shirts, all that remains are infrequent whiffs of memories we used to share Realizing that the smile once tattooed on my brain has slowly withered to side-bar conversations asking others, “how’s she doing?” Realizing that instead of laughing together late into the night, all that’s left are unshared messages and memes, saved down “just in case” I thought of you.

It must be difficult A constant conflict between prevailing self and hopeful expression A battle between your present actions and your deepest desires   Practicing detachment and evolving into an isolation connoisseur Caving inwards and raising barriers Withdrawing into the confines of your own consciousness Further segregated by bricks and wooden walls   Even though your soul yearns for more Your eyes fixated on the door, attempting to drum up the courage to escape Craving touch, longing for connection Missing the midnight drives with fingers interlocked Where a warm smile steals the moment, but a passionate kiss seals the day   But into the memory bank it currently goes Eventually to be replaced Unless self and expression can freely combine Unless actions and desires coalesce and harmonize Unless, that is, you give you a chance.